Dead and Gone

Happiness was what we both had

We laughed and cried, we were never sad

But now i see we're both done

Those days with you are dead and gone


You said some words that made me feel

Your love for me, but it wasn't real

Coz now i know you aren't the one

Those days with you are dead and gone


You hugged me tight and didn't wanna let go

My girlfriends said twas just for the show

Yes they were right, you really felt none

Those days with you are dead and gone


So now i'll say this final goodbye

Don't show me those fake tears and cry

Your show has ended, I've had enough, son

Coz those days with you are so dead and gone

You, A friend, A lie

i know its hard to feel this way

But theres nothing i could do to make it go away

You've been my friend since the day i was born

But now our bond has already been torn

You said forever friends we'll be

But now those words meant nothing to me

Coz you have broken my heart to pieces

And threw those bits to different places

How cound you do such a stupid thing

You didn't think of how much hurt it would bring

To lie and treat me like a dumb person

Look at us now, i hope you learned your lesson

I hope someday you'll earn a price

A price thats made up of all your lies

It will be read to the whole wide world

So that everyone will know how your tongue curled and curled

I didn't expect all this could happen

To me, to you and to the group you fell in

As a solution you decided to go far far away

But don't worry, we're now happy, every single day

A poem i found in my drawer (title? anyone?)

(pls. give me a go0d title f0r this... thanks)

why do i feel this way for you?

You are just a friend, that is so true

when i see your face, it makes me smile

i just want to be with you, even just for a while.

i feel so confused in what is really my point

look, i can't even move my knee joint

i'm having nose bleed just thinking of you

but still, i know, i don't wanna feel blue

i'm writing this poem just to let my heart say

doesn't matter if we're only friends, i just want you to stay

studying my lessons and reading my book

i just want to go to you to take one last look

i don't know what is in you that blows me away

i even know that you're a player, but i don't wanna play

i'm still thinking on what to write next

and there are so many things that i want to put in text

yes, you are the song that makes my heart sing

i hope that you see me as just the same thing

so i think this is the time that i say goodbye

coz my mind is going crazy and i still don't know why

wish i could just tell you how i feel right now

i just wanna let you know that i miss you somehow

Summer Fun or Summer Love?

-march 23, 2008-

its summer already, the long wait has ended

the party is starting, which i intended

lets all get ready to enjoy under the sun

bring out the beach balls, lets play and have fun

lets go to the beach and see who is there

boys in their boardshort, thats what i care

girls in their bathing suits, oh what a sight

boys just love it, yeah thats right

but for me, its another time to rest and reflect

about the last school year, what is its effect

did it turn me ito the person i am now? 

or did it make me a better person somehow?

well, lets stop thinking of the things that are done

it summer! thats right! its fun fun fun!

its gonna be exciting, we just cant wait

to go out with our friends, yeah that'll be great!

hmmm... maybe this summer you'll find summer love

and maybe, just maybe, he'll come from above

haha! this is funny, but it could be true

he'll sweep you off your feet and say ilove you

lets all just get over it and let it all be

for destiny could happen to you and to me

lets expect the unexpected and face whatever arises

yes, summer fun is full of surprises

so i think thats all coz we're running out of time

and now i should end my beautiful rhym

i'm still gonna get ready for we're going to the beach

i'm gonna have summer fun and you could come if you wish

.:Waiting for LOVE:.

-july 15, 2008-

Here I am with questions in mind
Looking for a true love to find
Confused with what fate has for me
Curious on what true love could be

As days go by I wait and smile
I think of love just for a while
My mind says stop, just wait and see
But my heart says go, just be free

Waiting for the right time and place
For you to come, I’ll see your face
But now I still don’t have a clue
Of where to find and who are you?

A love so true that will not die
Tears of joy will run through my eye
That’s when I find my one true love
As I look up the skies above

I pray that someday I will find
A love who is one of a kind
My innocent heart is so still
Waiting for love to come and fill

Alone =(

(March 27, 2008)  

Sitting here all alone and blue 

Wishing i had someone to talk to 

Its getting late and i'm still here 

Waiting for someone to take away my fear  

Living under the cloud of darkness 

Can someone please bring me to the light of brighness 

Coz being here is like lying on thorns 

Bleeding so much and hearing mourns  

In the silence of the dark I shed a tear 

I cry alone coz no one else is near 

A shoulder to cry on is all i need 

Please don't leave me out here to bleed  

I don't understand why i feel so empty 

There's no one here to comfort me 

Right now I feel lower than the gum under my shoe 

Point a gun at my heart and just shoot it right through  

I think this poem of lonliness should finish 

So that misery and sadness will all vanish 

Its really hard to be in this kind of zone 

Please stay with me coz i don't want to be alone

Solitary Flower

(Aug. 20, 2008)

The sun was up and very bright
The sky was blue, it was just right
The meadow was vast and oh so green
The breeze was cool, twas so serene

The trees felt good, they danced with glee
But there i stood, alone and free
I am a sunflower with petals of gold
with a heart so innocent, pure and bold

Sadly, i didn't realize the beauty around me 
For i knew that my heart wasn't happy
The colors of green were like black and white
The day's blue sky seemed like the night

But then my sadness suddenly faded
And yes, my heart was also invaded
When towards me, a beautiful creature was walking
A tall young man with a face so appealing

He looked at me with his delicate eyes
And he picked me off the ground to my surprise
At that very moment i felt so ecstatic
I didn't know what to do but i knew i shouldn't panic

He carefully placed me beside him in his car
I didn't care though we traveled so far
For being with him was amazingly enchanting
Feeling like a human, it was all so breathtaking

Unexpectedly, the car came to a stop
And we were in front of a beauty shop
He gently picked me up and brought me inside
Then there i saw a beautiful bride

She looked straight at me and smiled
But still my mind was going wild
For she was as beautiful as Helen of Troy
She could trully make a man out of a boy

He handed me to her in a romantic way
And then my world turned back to gray
I thought i found my special someone
I was wrong, and all my hope was gone

She thanked him and then placed me in a colorful vase 
And i watched the most painful scene came into place
He held her and kissed her on the lips lovingly
And tears came rolling down my eyes of misery

I suffered the pain and tried to conquer it all
And then i realized that my leaves started to fall
Yes, it was the end of my life as a flower
And still i thank God for i saw Love's power

My Last Week With You

-Oct. 23, 2008-

Just a week with you was heaven to me
Together we stayed in loving harmony
Being with you was so much fun
Our hearts beated together as one

It started on a Monday, we went out
To the zoo with the animals we didn't doubt
We saw two love birds and thought t'was sweet
So we were given a chance to give them a treat

When Tuesday came, t'was historical
We went to the museum, t'was radical
Indeed we learned you things about the past
But still we wondered if we could last

Wednesday was the day with the clowns
We went to the carnival in a bounce
We saw amazing acrobats in the air
But to see you go away i could not bare

On a Thursday night, we went to the mall
We watched the movie One Missed Call
I screamed and shout, you did to
But in the end, still, we made it through

On a sunny Friday, we stayed on the beach
You said, "swimming isn't hard to teach"
So i took the challenge and did my best
And at day's end, i was on your arms to rest

Saturday is here, a day at the park
We sat, talked and didn't realize t'was dark
We reflected on the days when we had so much fun
Then you whispered, "In my heart, you'll always be my #1"

Sunday, the day of the Lord is here
We went to church, but i had this fear
I really didn't understand why
But i knew I didn't want to say goodbye

As you drove me blissfully back to my haven
A tragedy came, we didn't expect it to happen
The car just spun and hit a big truck
And this day was worse than bad luck

When I woke up, I saw blood everywhere
Then i saw you, unconsciously lying there
I took you in my arms and whispered softly
"I know we'll make it, please don't leave me"

The ambulance came and rescued us
I cried, so worried I truly was
I felt so weak that my eyes closed
I then felt numb, my body froze

After a week since that accident took place
My consciousness came back, I looked for your face
But all I saw was a nurse who spoke to me and said
"He's now in heaven", which meant you were dead

After 50 years of pain, here i am still waiting
For these words gave me strength to go on living
"I know we'll meet again someday,
But while I'm gone, beside you I'll always stay."

Me And Who???

-oct. 24, 2008-

I know its crazy, but i can't help but wonder
About a topic that i should sit on and ponder
Its about the mystery of my partner to be
I know its dreamy but I'm just being me

What in the world could be his name?
Nubuchadnezzar? thats just so lame
Zachaeus? Pontius Pilate? that just wont do
Lets just keep it a secret between me and you

What could be the look of his face?
Cool? Romantic? or full of grace?
Could he be white? black? or just right?
Musculine? or chubby? so i could hold him so tight?

Could he be the serious? or the humorous one?
Homeboy? or adventurous? so both of could have fun
Is he a bookworm? or a sporty type of guy?
Naughty? or kind hearted? who could never tell a lie

Does he know how to cook a specific recipie?
With TLC he'll cook his very own specialty
Is he sensitive enough to understand words unspoken
And will he ever try his best for my heart won't get broken

I don't really care much of what he looks like
It doesn't matter if he only has a bike
Coz i know that the heart is what matters most
My love for his is gonna be hotter than toast

I know he may not come to me that quick
i can't even choose events in just one click
But i know, that someday he'll come and say
"Katrina, i love you, beside you i'll always stay"...

.:Stay With Me My Butterfly:.

As i looked out the broken glass window
I saw something that caught my eye
It had the colors of a rainbow
It was a beautiful butterfly

I went outside to take a closer look
And saw it land on a sunflower
I watched it and sat on a nook
And then, for a second, i felt its power

To my great surprise, it shined like the sun
I felt so scared that i made a plan
I hid behind the bush and saw the butterfly was gone
And beside the sunflower stood a handsome young man

I looked at him and said hello
He just smiled back and took my hand
In a blink of an eye and a single blow
I was already in his wonderland

I stayed with him and we had fun
We chat and laughed together
He told me not to tell anyone
I promised to keep it a secret forever

Suddenly i heard my mom call my name
And everything just turned black
He was all just a dream, this is so lame
And beside the sunflower, i was back

I was about to leave when i saw a piece of paper
It said, "Please don't ever say goodbye,
I'll be in your dreams forever,
Please stay in my heart, my girl butterfly."